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Hello and thank you all for following me on my journey through modeling.  As some of you know from facebook and other mediums that you may or may not follow me on, I am trying to see if there is an interest in purchasing prints of me that I did with Project Boss Productions.  Please let me know on here or thru email if this is something that would interest you.  my email is hopington.phd@gmail.com  and sorry to those of you who have seen this post multiple times in other realms.. I hate spammers too, but sometimes it's a bit of an unnecessary evil.

check out project boss's websites to see more of the photos we did together.  
facebook: www.facebook.com/ProjectBossPr…

first photo shoot we did together:  www.facebook.com/media/set/?se…

Industrial Anarchy Shoot we did together: www.facebook.com/media/set/?se…


general site: www.wix.com/projectboss/pbp

I am not a religious person at all.  We could go into this in depth if you want to talk about it, but let me just say, I am an atheist.

With that said,  I sometimes wish I were catholic just for the confession part.  I used to think that sounded so awful to go in and confess all your sins to a judging person (even though they aren't supposed to judge you).

recently, I just wish I could confess my deepest darkest thoughts to someone.   Of course I have friends and my boyfriend to confess certain things to, but there are some things I can not bring myself to tell even them.

So the thought of that stuffy, dark, and tiny cubicle starts to seem really appealing.  To cloak myself in darkness and step in, tell my secrets to someone I don't know, and be done with it.  I don't even need to be told I am forgiven or any of that nonsense.  Forgiven by who?  For what?  

I am not going to hell and neither are you Father, but that is beside the point.

They say that left handed people have more deja vu than right handed people.  I have no idea if this is true or how they would even measure such a thing, but I am left handed and I sure have a lot of deja vu.  But it's not always what you might think deja vu to be.  Sometimes its just a feeling, a shiver I get down my back that I have been here before and seen all of this happen already.  

Recently I have been having some crazy dreams, some of them are honestly gory and belong in a horror movie, while others are just weird and random.  The other day I had a dream I was at my soil science job, we were driving to our fields when we had to pull over to fill up on gas.  I was with my coworker Mack.  He stayed by the pump and I went to walk into the store for whatever reason and I saw him.  My super dramatic ex.  The blue columbia jacket gave him away, and my heart dropped to the bottom of my stomach

oh no oh no oh no... why didn't anyone tell me he was back in madison?  what is he doing here? ugghhhh

after that I don't really remember much of what happened in the dream.  And this was probably a couple weeks ago now that I had it.

Anyway today, I was pulling out of the grocery store parking lot and this car went by.  The passenger was wearing a navy blue Carhartt hat and we made a weird kind of eye contact that happens when you are in a car and I was like oh man I thought that was Mack because of the hat.  (the carhartt brand thing is a sort of inside joke with the soil scientists and I. also Mack wears a navy blue one a lot) so I pull out onto the road and into a gas station to fuel up and I see him there, the blue columbia jacket with his back turned and I was like aaahhhh heeelllllll  noooo!  My dream was right, GAH!  but he turned around and it was some other dude who just had the same sort of demeanor and body shape as my ex.  And then I just had that feeling, that deja vu feeling, and I realized my dream wasn't literal but more symbolic and about the feelings it created for me.

anyway that is my speel.. don't really know why I am sharing it, but if you feel like commenting on it, please do so.  I am curious as to what other people think about dreams and deja vu and the like.

also just a side note, I am not asking for analysis on my dream or anything so don't kid yourself there... haha just sayin..

Hey folks! Thanks for checking out my site.. I am new here so don't know what I'm doing half the time. haha anyway I have a ton more photos to put up, but I am sick of doin it one freakin pic at a time.  Is there an easier way to upload photos without upgrading my account?  Thanks !